Myspace Survey

I was on Myspace like any teen would be at night after getting finished with homework and i read a Myspace survey tell 5 PEOPLE anything and everything that you cant say out loud but don't use there names and see if they guess who they are if you don't you will die in 7 days. So I decide to do this but not on myspace on my blog and I DO NOT believe if I dint I would die but I need to let something go and I feel writing Will help.


1.You were my best friend , I counted on you for everything. Boy and Girl best friends always end badly I should have know we wouldn't have lasted. We never stooped texting and we hung out everyday. I told you all my dreams sand secrets and you told me your dreams and secrets. You told me I was amazing and smart.You told off your girlfriend when she told you to stop hanging out with me.I loved you so much. You kissed me and ruined my relationship with someone that actually really cared for me and liked my flaws and imperfections like that I snorted,when I laughed and my voice starts to shake,when I'm nervous. Then you told me that it dint mean anything and you wanted to try it,because you were bored,that It was weird kissing me . You thought it could go back to normal,but when we kissed I knew I liked it to much so that's why I told you that we couldn't be best friend anymore I couldn't take you dragging me along saying I love you like a sister and breaking up with your gf, and making me the other women, and how you don't think your part of the blame for letting someone that really liked me slip away.But you hurt me more than made me happy so I had to let you go. When I told you I hated you I dint mean it.It hurts every time I see you in the hallway and you look away.

2.I met you at a Party we both left with out saying goodbye to the host and the host started alot of drama over it,but we both agreed she was being rude to us at the party . Then we became best friends. People always comment " Ya ll are so different". Your quiet,and you think before you speak, and I'm hyper and loud. " But I always respond were salt and pepper were great together". You balance me out.You made me start caring about school.You've been there through every heartbreak and Ive been there for your heartbreaks, Through drama ,tears,bad hair days and boring SAT class you've been there and I love you so much for it.When your sad I feel sad to, I never knew I could care for someone this much that wasn't my family. I feel this need to protect you, and when I see other best friends I miss you. I can say you became my sister.You are there when I feel the world hates me and there when I'm being overly hyper in the middle hall way.Your my best friend and I can truly say I never ever want to lose you.

3.You were right, We wouldn't have worked out. I blamed you for not being together longer. You were right we go to different schools we would have never seen each other been suspicious if we were cheating and hurt when we could see each other.That you couldn't trust me after what happen when me and my boy best friend kissed and You would always wonder if I wanted to be with him and not you.I flirted with other boys in front of you.I am part of why were not together I admit it. The night you decided it wouldn't work out,You told me I wish I met we ment when we were older I will never really fully understand that, And you said that your a senior whats the point of getting attached to someone that you had to leave in a year and want to see and feel hurt in college, That you wouldn't want to leave and you needed to leave this place.,You cried that night.We both cried.You were right I blamed you I told you "I wanted you out of my life and for you NOT TO TALK TO ME EVER. And that I don't want you as a friend I have enough friends." You took it literally and we haven't talked or spoken for four months. My space friends no more, names erased out of are phones. I found out you have a girlfriend I was jealous at first thinking what did she have that I don't ,plus shes a freshman what angered me more. But I learned to let you go and just remember the memories. Sometimes I wonder if you still have the stuffed llama I gave you.

4.I hated you at first, But i actually look forward in seeing you every day .You have become one of the people I can act weird around and you don't judge me you just except me. It took me awhile to fully except your sarcastic personality. But Ive grown to be very fond of it.I have fun with you and you actually think I'm Smart not alot of people do,because my goofy personality overshadows it. I really do care for you even though I don't show it half the time.

5.I'm sorry I was the other woman. It only happened once. But I don't know what to say. I feel sometimes the need to go up to you and apologize but half the time I dotn Care,because you don't know. You let him treat you that way, I hope to never let a guy keep me on a leach.

Theater kid

Theater Junkie:
If you think a theater kid is the most extreme breed of the "theater person species", you have not met a theater junkie.
A theater junkie is a person literally addicted to theater. If they are not in a play of some sort that moment, they don't feel exactly normal. They usually spend about an hour a day memorizing lines and the rest of it preparing for that night's rehearsal.
They give up things they want to do for the sake of rehearsal. They never miss one, no matter what happens. Even if they're sick, they go but are sent home because the director doesn't want the rest of the cast to catch it.
On their iPod or MP3 Player, you will most likely find a vast majority of showtunes on it. They tend to break into song randomly when they are reminded of a show.
They usually plan on going to college with a major in Theater, or go to an art's school for Theater. After that pursue a career, becoming a starving artist and loving every minuet of it.
"So are you going to the dance tonight?"
"I can't I have rehearsal."
Or
"I have to work on my script tonight, sorry."
"You really are a Theater Junkie, you know?"
"Yeah, I know. Haha."

( I got this of of Urban dictonary.com I couldn't stop laughing at it, if your going to grade read the one bellow please,but I just had to share this with everyone)

Musical Musical

I have to admit I can not sing worth a dime, I cant hold a note to be honest I sing like I love Lucy, but in real life,so it was not surprising that I did not get a lead role in The musical "Little Shop of Horrors".Plus I'm Publicity director so its my job to raise money and make posters for the musical,flyer's and make sure allot of people know about it , Playbill artist who designs the Playbill and ON Tech crew. I really don't mind that I dint get a lead,because were also doing another play which isn't a musical for TEA,we are performing Boys Next Door which is a play about mental handicapped men living in a apartment with their care taker Jack and I got Shelia a mental handicapped girl that likes one of them men in the apartment,The role is very sensitive to play,because you don't want to make fun of them but you want people to laugh at the trouble they get themselves.But back on track I forgot what TEA it stands for but its something to do with Texas and the arts. I GOT THE GIRL LEAD. I was actually very surprised that I got it, I was sure he was going to give it to a senior,but I did ! Im glad I got a leading role,because were performing for 400 UIL theater judges which alot of them are theater directors/professors at University's and colleges and even though I want to go to NYU,if I get a scholarship to another school my NYU dream will have to die for awhile ,but not me living in New York,When I get older.That will never die.

What I learned in my Seventeen Years

I turned seventeen this November 27,2009,I know off topic but If i can share my "wisdom" with other people I will

In my seventeen years i learned


1.Enjoy the little things in life. Like good weather,or someone saying its OK to cut them in the long lunch line at mac :),Friday night football games,and sitting by your best friend in one of your classes,when your feeling a certain mood and a song comes on the radio that fits in perfectly.

2. Boys are going to Break your heart. But its better to love then never loved at all.

3. Pray to God in the good times,the bad times and the OK time. He is always there to listen to even your little problems.

4. When your having problems horrible problems and you look at people you see they have little problems,but to them there problems are horrible so be sympathetic .


5.High school can be one of the wrost years of your life or the greatest,So stop complaining about how its dramatic and how you hate it and enjoy it .

6.Every days is a fashion show, dress to impress you never know who your going to meet that day.

7. Boys from different schools are hard to go out with,because its high school clearly and its like they live far away even thought they just live in a different part of town . High schools are like communities they live in a different communities so it wont work out in the end


8. Have a creative outlet,everyone needs to do something creative or the childlike side will die.

9.No boy is worth or girl crying over if they cant see how great you are in the great words of Yinka " If you cant see how great your are then he isn't that great "

10.Be who you are don't be scared,don't follow the crowd, do what you want say what you want.Be YOU.



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Burned out

I am simply burned out. Im tired very tired of waking up for school then doing Theater stuff after or stuco or pals or TAFE ! Im tired of doing loads of homework. Sometimes I wonder why I even take AP classes. People that take all regualrs are higher then me in class rank,because they take all regulars. Thank goodness that next week is Thanksgiving break and I can finally SLEEP,sleep,sleep,sleep. Tommrow im going to help the middle schools in there UIL show.Im tired im going to try to sleep .

Mother Love

This week I've had my first ear infection, On monday I went to the doctor after school,which she game me medcine,by thursday my ear,my face were swollen and I could not ear and barley talk because of the pain, and I lost all hearing in my right hear . I went back the doctor did not give me strong enough medcine, and prescribed another one. That night I stayed awake crying,because of the pain in my ear and how hungry I was but i was not able to eat. My mother stayed up with me rubbing my back, putting hot towels on my ear and talking to me. There as she put another hot towel on my ear and rubbed my back. She told me " I want you to follow your dreams, I dont ever want you to give up.I never want to be the reason why you dint accompolish what your heart desired,because I dont want you to be in New York. Dont be like me make something out of your self. I love you so much" There I never have felt my mothers love so strong.Knowing that my dreams were more imporant to her then her dreams were ever,where. There I promised my self I will become FAMOUS. I will buy her another hosue in New york, Cars and cater to her every need. Let her go to college and pay for it which her family couldnt offord,when she got out of highschool. I will make her and my dreams come true.

Cup of change

So the application fee for NYU sumnmer highschool is 75 dollars, I dint want my parents to pay the fee so I've been saving change in a Macarthur Highschool cup.Day by day I put change in it. My nephew comes over and takes all the coins from my cup and puts them in a bag and all the coins , and I told him please dont do that im saving up for something special,and he SAID "NO ITS MINE",every coin he put in I felt my dream fading away.I run to tell my mother and she tells me to hush because my sister left two kids with her and my mom isnt very young anymore so she rather have a content child then someone screamign there lungs out,he took all my coins out and put them in a plastic bag,I belive.already had about fifteen dollars saved. Still fifteen dollars 75-15=60,only sixty left.The thing that gets me mad the most.I havent told my parents about this NYU summer Highschool because 1. We cant offord it, im hopping to apply and get granted a scholoraship 2. I dont think they understand my dream.I really think they think me wanting to move to New york is just a phase. For now im gonna save secretly again and dream quietly.

Summer Highschool NYU

Today I found one of the most greatest thing in the entire life, I was looking through the NYU Tish School of arts page and found they have a summer Highschool for highschool kids, that allows them to participate in theater courses,musical courses,directing courses,etc etc. Over the summer in New York and we will be like were taking coruses in New York Unversity, and after were done will have 6 college credits. There is only one problem A. It cost 7,729 dollars im not sure I CAN offord it. 2. Could i even get in if i tried.Hopefully I can get a schloarship , do you know how great the experince would be if i made it in.This dream im hoping to make it into a reality.


"During the summer the Tisch School of the Arts offers high school students the chance to participate in intensive training either in New York City, Dublin or Paris. Through these programs students gain an enriching and enlightening experience, and a better understanding of the nature of a professional training program."

CLICCCCCCCCCK :)

Actors that inspire

Every Christimas My family watches a Wonderfull Life, I still remember it was fifth grade and It was cold and the fire was on and I was sipping hot cocco with my quilt my mom made me in second grade surrounded around me like I was a caterpilllar in my coccon. And A Wonderful Life came on,not like usual routine i did every Chrismas, I would pull out the lastest book I was reading and read that while the rest of the family watch the movie,,I dint pick up my book I watched,Every actor and actress in the movie just captured your heart wanting all of them just to be happy. One scene that came on that I'll never forget Jimmy stewart and Donna Reed did one of the most romantic and inspiring scences I ever seen. How a actor and actress Could be so good and show much love and longing between someone that dint love or long for was behind me.( Watch Scene Up ahead enjoy :) )

School days blaah

Listen :)



Some days I don't think I can make it through the day, I failed a quiz,Im having a bad hair day, I already have a ton of homework and the day isn't over, I got pushed in the over crowded hallway,and some one made fun of the way I walk,and the teacher just yelled at me for asking someone a question.I close my eyes,take a deep breath and I take myself back to New York, I can hear the tourist talking in driffrent languages,I hear the taxi cabs honking there horns and rushing pass,I smell the taint smell of sewer and my feet ache from walking so much, and I see Broadway and fifth avenue and a hundred people trying to find the nearst subway enterest, and im happy again and I know all of this won't matter one day and I'll be back there New York.

One step Back to FAME and NYU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rdk_12j2l9E CLICK IT

Today I went to college night, more than geting me excited to leave home and leave dramtic over bearing,hormone teens,and inspid teachers made up of Highschool,it made me think I was a failure at life. Am i doing enough to get into NYU ? Student council,Theate Productions(highest theater you can take),Vice president of class of 2011, TAFE( If you wanna be a teacher),AP CLASSES ,PALS Program ,and Honor classes, not going out on the weekends like a normal teen obessing over grades and studying on weekends, is that enough,feeling that since i have a eighty one in AP HISTORY is horriable,because I know someone applying to NYU probly has a hundred?I feel more farther to fame and NYU right now then I ever have. I have one bad case of melancholy. I feel so apatheic was all I've worked hard for now slipping through the cracks of my fingers,because my SAT Scores arent going to be high enough in the math portion. What if i dont pass the math taks and im worrying about SAT scores ?,What school can nuture my talent and make me brillant like the classic actors like Audrey Hepuburn and Jimmy Steart if it isnt NYU ? WHAT if NYU just dosnt except me at all, CAN I EVEN OFFORD IT IF i do get in ?( Click above the link to the contrevosty that happen to NYU,last Febuary)

MEEEEEEE

Ribbon Hood Age:14 ( I was Prince John )






How can you read someones blog with out having a little insight in there life even though my blog is about my quest about becoming famous and me striving to be perfect so the the notorious school New York Unversity, excepts me next year.But you must know how my passion for theater and becoming famous and the fanastion of New York Unversity came about. It all started in second grade , when my mother tired of me putting my nose in a book all summer,decides I should socialize with kids my age so she put me at theater camp at Irving arts center, Missoula theater comes down and puts on two plays and my mom put me in the one called Little Red Ridding Hood (next blog ill talk more about the missoula program), It was the first time i ever did any theater in my entire life and i got a lead ," Little Red Ridding Hoods Bestfriend", For second grade i got a huge part compared to all the other second graders even some seventh graders were trembling with anger that i got a lead part.Maby it was the rush of my heart as i got appaulse for doing a good job,or the feeling of taking on someone that was polar oppoiste of me , got me addicted to the rush of theater, but after that I was hooked on the love-hate realtionship actor have for theater. New York Unversity Im not sure how I stared to adore it, Since my Freshman summer year I've been wanting to go there , mabye in a pass life I did go there, and my old soul of my past life wants to relive the happiest moments they had and it was there, also i belive New York Unversity will nuture my creative craft and make me more skilled in the art and making one step closer or my goal to become FAMOUS.

New York New York

Where did my fascination ,for New York come about ? Im not sure why i always wanted to go there to see broadway ,walk the streets,feel the exciment that New York brings into your soul. And this Summer my Dream become a reality I went to New York. There I never felt more alive,;When your there you feel like you can do anything and everything.That all your worries melt away like a ice cream left out on a hot summer day. I loved everything about it,the natives,the hundred million tourists,walking every where ridding the train (subway). I've never been so happy, as i walked around Manhattan , there i felt I've been there before that my soul has travled there in my dreams, I decide that second i was standing in Central Park this is;where I'll live to i grow old and wrinkled and become one of those shrivled up old ladies that sit on central park bench, throwing popcorn on the floor for the birds, of central park.So sometimes i count down the days to graduation till I get to be there agian, but then when im around all my family I feel the love and never wanna leave them,but still i can still feel New York whispering my name in the wind softly calling me back.