Well

I was once told a great writer usually writes about their life. So were Do I start I havent wrote in my blog in months. But when I did write I usually never wrote about me, since it was school work writing in this blog,and we would have to stay in one topic I would only write about my topic of how to get into NYU. But that dream has died with me, only wanting short hair for the rest of my life. So what I know is I'm me, all the time I never put a mask on for anyone I act the way all the time. And I never change the way I act for anyone. I've never had a best friend that I could tell anything to , or not have one using me for their own personal gain. The closes I ever have come was Sakiwaya Bahh and shes two years younger than me. I like clothes alot and sometimes my personal style is questioned by my peers. I believe the more unique the clothing is the better. Theatre is my passion and I hope one day to make a career of it. There something I cant describe about when I'm on stage, Usually I feel like something inside me is missing,and I never feel whole, but the one time I do is;when I'm on stage. People think I'm stupid. and for awhile I thought I was to. One person told me I was over and over and over again till finally I thought I was.But one day I woke up and I knew god dint make me stupid, and dint want me letting someone belittling me that way. So I told that person goodbye and I threw myself into theatre and God. And now I'm a hundred times happier.

Macarthur Texas Sterotype

Even though half the time im very ready to get out of school I still Love my school dearly. I have many friends from different schools and they seem to have stereotypes of a "MacArthur High school student". When I asked many of the time what they thought MacArthur Students were like they answered this.

1. Ya ll dress up for school why Do you have to impress?
2. White and Rich
3.Stuck up
4. Par tiers
5. Preppy
6. Not smart
7. Irving School District Favorite School, that's why y'all have so much nice stuff.
8. White/Mexicans( Mexican Americans that think their White)

One kid told me that just as I walked in the door,when he met me just by my vibe he could tell that I was from MacArthur !

I do agree in some point that are school is diff rent from other schools. I feel bad sometimes;when I see Irving High school kids or Nimitz high school kids I feel superior to them, and I know for a fact they feel the same way that there better then me because I got to "Rich MacArthur ". I'm always scared that Mac will burn down some how and ill be forced to go to one of the schools. Because I love my school, I see everyone I love here everyday some days I don't want to even roll out of bed but the fact is I love the sprit, I love the kids in it. Even though sometimes the kids in are school can be really mean for the most part I try to look at the positive and the beauty of everyone here. I'm proud to say I'm a "MacArthur Texan"

All Break

One of my Favorite Christmas Preasents






Winter Break came and Gone. And Even though it was a much needed break ,relaxing and fun I still Got bored. SO i started Googling ( Is that even a verb ? ) and I Googled New York stories. And I came across a man talking about how he moved to NYC. And I related to this person so much. In his heart the man always wanted to go to New York and he wasn't sure why just a longing. So one day he decide to go, so he bought a airplane ticket and left. He got there and fell in love with the city, and he never been happier in his entire life, so he bought a apartment that was ten times the rent in his hometown and also ten times smaller, and told his friends to send him his stuff and quit his job. But he said that was the best decision he made in his entire life,because he never has been so happy in his entire life. But to tell you the truth im scared some times,Can I make it in this high pace environment?,What will I do with out my family, will I be able to make Friends all these thoughts run through my head every day but I hope I can make it because hope is all I have.

Myspace Survey

I was on Myspace like any teen would be at night after getting finished with homework and i read a Myspace survey tell 5 PEOPLE anything and everything that you cant say out loud but don't use there names and see if they guess who they are if you don't you will die in 7 days. So I decide to do this but not on myspace on my blog and I DO NOT believe if I dint I would die but I need to let something go and I feel writing Will help.


1.You were my best friend , I counted on you for everything. Boy and Girl best friends always end badly I should have know we wouldn't have lasted. We never stooped texting and we hung out everyday. I told you all my dreams sand secrets and you told me your dreams and secrets. You told me I was amazing and smart.You told off your girlfriend when she told you to stop hanging out with me.I loved you so much. You kissed me and ruined my relationship with someone that actually really cared for me and liked my flaws and imperfections like that I snorted,when I laughed and my voice starts to shake,when I'm nervous. Then you told me that it dint mean anything and you wanted to try it,because you were bored,that It was weird kissing me . You thought it could go back to normal,but when we kissed I knew I liked it to much so that's why I told you that we couldn't be best friend anymore I couldn't take you dragging me along saying I love you like a sister and breaking up with your gf, and making me the other women, and how you don't think your part of the blame for letting someone that really liked me slip away.But you hurt me more than made me happy so I had to let you go. When I told you I hated you I dint mean it.It hurts every time I see you in the hallway and you look away.

2.I met you at a Party we both left with out saying goodbye to the host and the host started alot of drama over it,but we both agreed she was being rude to us at the party . Then we became best friends. People always comment " Ya ll are so different". Your quiet,and you think before you speak, and I'm hyper and loud. " But I always respond were salt and pepper were great together". You balance me out.You made me start caring about school.You've been there through every heartbreak and Ive been there for your heartbreaks, Through drama ,tears,bad hair days and boring SAT class you've been there and I love you so much for it.When your sad I feel sad to, I never knew I could care for someone this much that wasn't my family. I feel this need to protect you, and when I see other best friends I miss you. I can say you became my sister.You are there when I feel the world hates me and there when I'm being overly hyper in the middle hall way.Your my best friend and I can truly say I never ever want to lose you.

3.You were right, We wouldn't have worked out. I blamed you for not being together longer. You were right we go to different schools we would have never seen each other been suspicious if we were cheating and hurt when we could see each other.That you couldn't trust me after what happen when me and my boy best friend kissed and You would always wonder if I wanted to be with him and not you.I flirted with other boys in front of you.I am part of why were not together I admit it. The night you decided it wouldn't work out,You told me I wish I met we ment when we were older I will never really fully understand that, And you said that your a senior whats the point of getting attached to someone that you had to leave in a year and want to see and feel hurt in college, That you wouldn't want to leave and you needed to leave this place.,You cried that night.We both cried.You were right I blamed you I told you "I wanted you out of my life and for you NOT TO TALK TO ME EVER. And that I don't want you as a friend I have enough friends." You took it literally and we haven't talked or spoken for four months. My space friends no more, names erased out of are phones. I found out you have a girlfriend I was jealous at first thinking what did she have that I don't ,plus shes a freshman what angered me more. But I learned to let you go and just remember the memories. Sometimes I wonder if you still have the stuffed llama I gave you.

4.I hated you at first, But i actually look forward in seeing you every day .You have become one of the people I can act weird around and you don't judge me you just except me. It took me awhile to fully except your sarcastic personality. But Ive grown to be very fond of it.I have fun with you and you actually think I'm Smart not alot of people do,because my goofy personality overshadows it. I really do care for you even though I don't show it half the time.

5.I'm sorry I was the other woman. It only happened once. But I don't know what to say. I feel sometimes the need to go up to you and apologize but half the time I dotn Care,because you don't know. You let him treat you that way, I hope to never let a guy keep me on a leach.

Theater kid

Theater Junkie:
If you think a theater kid is the most extreme breed of the "theater person species", you have not met a theater junkie.
A theater junkie is a person literally addicted to theater. If they are not in a play of some sort that moment, they don't feel exactly normal. They usually spend about an hour a day memorizing lines and the rest of it preparing for that night's rehearsal.
They give up things they want to do for the sake of rehearsal. They never miss one, no matter what happens. Even if they're sick, they go but are sent home because the director doesn't want the rest of the cast to catch it.
On their iPod or MP3 Player, you will most likely find a vast majority of showtunes on it. They tend to break into song randomly when they are reminded of a show.
They usually plan on going to college with a major in Theater, or go to an art's school for Theater. After that pursue a career, becoming a starving artist and loving every minuet of it.
"So are you going to the dance tonight?"
"I can't I have rehearsal."
Or
"I have to work on my script tonight, sorry."
"You really are a Theater Junkie, you know?"
"Yeah, I know. Haha."

( I got this of of Urban dictonary.com I couldn't stop laughing at it, if your going to grade read the one bellow please,but I just had to share this with everyone)

Musical Musical

I have to admit I can not sing worth a dime, I cant hold a note to be honest I sing like I love Lucy, but in real life,so it was not surprising that I did not get a lead role in The musical "Little Shop of Horrors".Plus I'm Publicity director so its my job to raise money and make posters for the musical,flyer's and make sure allot of people know about it , Playbill artist who designs the Playbill and ON Tech crew. I really don't mind that I dint get a lead,because were also doing another play which isn't a musical for TEA,we are performing Boys Next Door which is a play about mental handicapped men living in a apartment with their care taker Jack and I got Shelia a mental handicapped girl that likes one of them men in the apartment,The role is very sensitive to play,because you don't want to make fun of them but you want people to laugh at the trouble they get themselves.But back on track I forgot what TEA it stands for but its something to do with Texas and the arts. I GOT THE GIRL LEAD. I was actually very surprised that I got it, I was sure he was going to give it to a senior,but I did ! Im glad I got a leading role,because were performing for 400 UIL theater judges which alot of them are theater directors/professors at University's and colleges and even though I want to go to NYU,if I get a scholarship to another school my NYU dream will have to die for awhile ,but not me living in New York,When I get older.That will never die.

What I learned in my Seventeen Years

I turned seventeen this November 27,2009,I know off topic but If i can share my "wisdom" with other people I will

In my seventeen years i learned


1.Enjoy the little things in life. Like good weather,or someone saying its OK to cut them in the long lunch line at mac :),Friday night football games,and sitting by your best friend in one of your classes,when your feeling a certain mood and a song comes on the radio that fits in perfectly.

2. Boys are going to Break your heart. But its better to love then never loved at all.

3. Pray to God in the good times,the bad times and the OK time. He is always there to listen to even your little problems.

4. When your having problems horrible problems and you look at people you see they have little problems,but to them there problems are horrible so be sympathetic .


5.High school can be one of the wrost years of your life or the greatest,So stop complaining about how its dramatic and how you hate it and enjoy it .

6.Every days is a fashion show, dress to impress you never know who your going to meet that day.

7. Boys from different schools are hard to go out with,because its high school clearly and its like they live far away even thought they just live in a different part of town . High schools are like communities they live in a different communities so it wont work out in the end


8. Have a creative outlet,everyone needs to do something creative or the childlike side will die.

9.No boy is worth or girl crying over if they cant see how great you are in the great words of Yinka " If you cant see how great your are then he isn't that great "

10.Be who you are don't be scared,don't follow the crowd, do what you want say what you want.Be YOU.



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